i cant quite smiling.......

here i am catching up on reading my blogs and i cant quite smiling......is it something im reading? no......is it because i can hear my kids in the other room getting along? no....( we can only wish for that)it is the wonderful music that i can hear coming in my bedroom window. yes yes yes. it is powerful yet simple. it is off key. yet beautiful. it is slightly drowned out by the hum of a lawn mower. yet loud enough i can hear the happiness in its tone. aww it is my beautiful little neighbor giving me my very own concert. Shantel how you make me giggle inside. i just love it.

i often long for the city life. how i miss living right down town SLC. my stay there was only a short one but i loved it. some will say that it is because of the memories i have of taylor there. i must agree. but i think that there is something more. i think i long for having anything i need at my finger tips. for being excepted no matter what i look like. for not having everyone know my past, my present and my future.

but it is this morning..... and my own concert from next door that makes me realize i am happy to live in the country!!!!

SCHOOOOLLLSSS OUT FOR SUMMER......

today was my first day of summer break.... i had the very best of intentions to get up and be productive.... but cort was in my bathroom....and when i started to do my hair i got the worst cramps....i had no choice but to lay in bed......and some how i'm not sure how it happened.....but i feel back to sleep.....i must have slept like a rock because when i woke the clock said it was 1:30!!!!

ok this is nothing new for me. i really have been known to sleep my days away. but i have talked and talked to myself. and i agreed that this would not happen this summer. so i am off to a bad start, but tomorrow is another day right? and i know i can do better.

i am going to set some goals, make some lists, and i know this will help. i am not going to get discouraged.

goals:

*train to walk/jog my first half marathon
*plant a garden and stick with it this year
*do allot of hiking(the kids and i love to do this)
*get out of bed by 10 weather i worked the night before or not
list of to dos:

*but in basement flooring
*organize and simplify my drawers and closets
*make cort a head board
*build a entertainment center for big tv

i think that sounds great to start with. wish me luck!!!